Make That Decision!!
So you did it – you decided that you want to lose weight!!
It took me 12 years to make that decision once and for all. While it took a big push from the most important person in my life, my husband, well actually I should say SHOVE … I decided that all my procrastination had to end.
On December 17, 2009 I began my weight loss journey. I had been going to Curves, working out, thinking I was getting a great workout. I would leave with a little sweat on the back of my neck and maybe I would need to wipe my forehead on occasion. I could go about my day only showering in the morning before I went to workout. Well now when I leave the gym, I look like I just got out of the shower!!
After having my second child I decided I was not going to return to work. I advised my husband I was going to be a stay-at-home mommy and take care of my own children. Well, I was very uninformed about how hard it was going to be not socializing with my friends in the workforce and unfortunately Oprah became my best friend. Everyday when Oprah was on I would put my kids down for their nap and grab the Doritos and ice cream and sit down for that hour of peace and quiet bliss … no toddlers begging me for a bite or needing my attention. I was able to sit and eat what I wanted, get adult company and refresh myself for the rest of my day. I soon packed on 20 lbs, then another 10, and soon I went from 150 lbs. to 180 lbs. Having to go shopping for new clothes was fun – but that size … ICK!!! I quickly began to look for diets to go on. I tried Adkins, Carb Addicts Diet, the Beet Diet, South beach Diet just to name a few. I would lose 8 or 10, then gain 6, lose 5 more then gain 8. It was a never-ending battle that I soon LOST!! I then proceeded to pack on another 82 lbs. over the next several years. I had done it … I was 262 lbs. At 5’9 I was wearing a size 26 pants and 3XL shirt. This was NOTHING to be proud of, as I was the heaviest person in my family I always felt like the token fat girl. You know the girl … the only one in the group of all the skinny girls who you feel are being watched eat your ice cream while the other girls talk about how it has too many calories to indulge. Yah, I was her. And I HATED her!!
I avoided weddings, parties, doing anything that would bring attention to myself. I gave up many talents I had because I couldn’t bring myself to let others see my like that. I hid (so I thought) behind the kind of clothes that I thought didn’t make me look so fat. I only shopped at Target and WalMart because I didn’t deserve nice clothes. Everyday I was going to start losing weight.
Well On December 17, 2009 I started. And today I have lost 75 lbs. and I feel TERRIFIC!!! My weight loss journey is NOT over … but now there is a Light at the End of the Tunnel … and I am drawing near that light. I am here to tell you that it can be done!! If “I” can do it, “anyone” can do it!! And that’s a promise!!